get to know me.

over the course of my blogging, i've never talked much about who i really am.
and what makes me...me! i felt that it was about time for a post of this nature.

let's start with the basics: i'm 19 and i'll be 20 in march, the 25th to be exact. i share a birthday with elton john and aretha franklin, just to name a couple, so i'm pretty important. no big deal, though.
i've lived in the teeny tiny town of poplar bluff, missouri for practically my entire life. i did a few stints in a couple of other small southeastern mo towns before age 5, but only briefly.
it's really awful here. it's too big for that small town charm, and too small for there to be anything exciting or interesting.
i'm currently in college. i go to the local community school, which i always thought i'd drop dead before doing.
but now that i'm there, i realize it's kinda more my thing. i'm not really the "university" type, i guess.
i thought that i was going to be a kindergarten teacher for a really long time, but now i'm considering an art major.
but a few days ago, i started thinking about teaching again. as far as a "career," the only thing i've ever really wanted is to be a mom and wife, and i'm very excited for both. one of which will be happening very soon.

i have a really great, wonderful, supportive boyfriend, whom i like to beluga. he's my whale and i'm his. (i don't really remember how the whole whale thing got started. it's my favorite animal, the beluga, and he just started calling me that one day, and i followed.)
we're getting married next year, but we're not engaged. which i know sounds really weird and doesn't make sense. :)
but we have our reasons, and it's totally okay.
i know we'll be together forever and that's all i need.
i've never had such a good friend in all my life. i feel so blessed.
i'd always seen couples who had those bff type relationships, but never had something like that myself.
and i'm happy that i do now and it's with ol' whale.
my joshmallow.

i have a few more bffs, my brothers and sisters. i have three little sisters and two little brothers.
they're some of the funniest, greatest kids i know. and i'd be lost without any one of them.
we're all very different, and each have such special personalities and qualities to them.
we have a pretty tight bond and one that i don't think could be easily broken.

BACK TO ME. just kidding. but, really.

i'm pretty shy and quiet until you get to know me, and then it's a whole other story.
that's a typical thing, but i'm really bad with it. which i kind of hate.
my whole life people have typically thought i was stuck up, snotty, and unfriendly...when that's not the case at all.
i'm the complete opposite, but i'm just very awkward and shy.
after i open up though, i'm completely silly and ridiculous, and not to brag or anything...but i'm pretty fun, too. :)

i go through these weird little phases where i become a huge homebody and prefer to not really do anything and keep to myself. i am currently in one of these little funks. i don't really know why it happens, and i'm hoping i get over this one soon.

i'm incredibly disorganized and messy. sorry 'bout it.

i work in a grocery store. but i think i'd like a job in retail soon.

my favorite outfits consist of black leggings and real cute boots.

i want to write a novel and a bunch of children's books.

i paint. i've fallen completely in love with it.

i don't know what else to say about little ol' me. :) i'm pretty much an open book, tho. so if there are ever any questions or curiousities, feel free to inquire.